A permanent struggle with myself, I tried my best to push these urges somewhere in a dark corner of my mind ... it wont work, I have to leave Romania as soon as possible. I cant complain about poor living nor lack of material belongings but I feel I'm wasting my potential, my opportunities and certainly I don't want to see my child growing up in a blank place looking up to some worthless piece of shit on TV. Everybody tells me stuff like "do you think the roads are pawed with gold there ?" ... but those empty skulls wont ever understand what I'm really looking for. What am I looking for ? under any circumstances I'm not looking for easy money rather I'm looking to master my trade, to become a skilled person, I'm looking for walks in nice clean parks, I'm chasing smiles on streets, I wish to pedal my bike trough traffic without getting bloody, I don't want to see politicians robbing the country, I want to wear my tattoo's with pride without being criticized, I want to ride a speed bike on a highway, I want to skate in skate parks without crashing into retired people, I want to sort garbage, I want to be treated in proper equipped and cleaned hospitals ... I need to live amongst civilized people. Unfortunately I've got a few set backs,
- 1st: my life companion thinks after the pattern, I'm sure she will enjoy her life like never before if we move away and she will thank me for taking the decision, kinda easy to solve this problem, if I cant make her see beyond the told stories about how hard it is to resist a life as a stranger ( told by the ones without soul, the ones which chase the quick buck ), I will blackmail her with things which she wont accept loosing no mater the price she has to pay.
- 2nd: and probably the main reason is me and me being really circumspect about all major decisions which could affect my life in an uncontrolled way, I will try to get motivation from somewhere and act, how many unskilled people from my neighborhood managed to leave and stay ... why did they managed to get a job without language knowledge, without education ? would I be able to make things work out ? yes ! most likely since I'm not shy working and capable to figure out a way to find my place.
The ideal place for me would be New York but for the beginning any other place to build my skills will do and the apartment near central park has to wait for a while.
I do have plans to conquer my self a happy life and by all means necessary I'll manage to leave everything behind and live my life as I want to, not as some like me to.
Why should I stay ? should I waste my years waiting for the change ? the rusty and broken play grounds, the student hating teachers, the high level corruption, the ridiculous health system, bureaucracy ... could my subconscious be addicted to this garbage ? My parents will suffer but eventually they will come along also.
Some day soon, it will happen and I wont change my mind.
Mr. Lemmy's poem is the perfect description for the shade of black my soul has right now
I hate ...
Monday, May 31, 2010
Thursday, May 20, 2010
Natural stuff considered not moral or even banned
Yeah right ! even though it shouldn't be banned I won't write about Marijuana because it became trendy to complain about the banned weed. If somebody questions my position towards drugs I'm tolerant ... dope, crack, tooth paste, mushrooms, LSD, ecstasy (mdma's), speed, PCP's, nitrous oxide, acid, methamphetamine, dextromorphan hydrobromide (dxm), cough syrup, ketamine and the rest should be legalized and served to kids also ... fuck it ! we are to many on this freaking planet anyway. Ok ! today's thought is not about drugs nor banned substances, it is about the modern society judging itself. Judging the basic human needs and catalog them as immoral, today you are immoral if you let one out, or you are immoral if you get hick ups or burp after drinking a cup of soda, way beyond immoral if you really have to take a crap on the side of the road ( milk and fruit don't mix that well ), people get outraged if you really have to piss on a tree in the park, runny noses would make each fagot puke in public ( regurgitating is as natural as taking a nice steamy log shaped piece of shit ), ohohohohoooo you become the laugh of the village if you get caught wanking (I never did it myself but I heard most people do it = normal ). Lets be honest, seeing somebody pissing or taking a crap is not a pleasant sight but its more unpleasant to hold it with terrible cramps and eventually shit yourself, and believe me not everybody enjoys taking a crap in the public. Last summer while walking in the park and old man was taking a discreet leak, a lady walking a dog in front of me was talking to her husband " look that old man is taking a piss in public, what a disgusting thing to do", few more steps they came to a halt "wait ! Rex is taking a poop", Rex took the poop but forgot to wipe and the lady had a really good comment " look honey he's got a dingle berry on his hair ... just like humans". Criticizing an old gentleman for taking care of an urgent need just to admire your dogs dingle berry the next minute is just a perfect reflection of today's society, FUCKING HYPOCRITES.
Good ! it happens but not very often to piss or shit in the public, how about farting ? A healthy person farts like 150/day and still most of us look awkward if somebody next to us can't hold them in. Does it happen to travel by train/bus, or sitting at the office and feeling the need to put some weights in your pockets to prevent an sure lift off ? Believe me ! you will fly away for not using your anal acoustics. All natural acts relief the body of toxins and bad smell, but they also produce certain amount of pleasure (if not having kidney stones or anal ruptures), this subject might be taboo in some houses but not here, we talk about what ever I please here.
Been serious enough for one day lets put some smiles on those faces, check out this guy:
Hey Hillary Clinton did it also ... he's only a mere student without clothes.
Be careful with those ass thunders you might airbrush your boxers.
Pârț !
Good ! it happens but not very often to piss or shit in the public, how about farting ? A healthy person farts like 150/day and still most of us look awkward if somebody next to us can't hold them in. Does it happen to travel by train/bus, or sitting at the office and feeling the need to put some weights in your pockets to prevent an sure lift off ? Believe me ! you will fly away for not using your anal acoustics. All natural acts relief the body of toxins and bad smell, but they also produce certain amount of pleasure (if not having kidney stones or anal ruptures), this subject might be taboo in some houses but not here, we talk about what ever I please here.
Been serious enough for one day lets put some smiles on those faces, check out this guy:
Hey Hillary Clinton did it also ... he's only a mere student without clothes.
Be careful with those ass thunders you might airbrush your boxers.
Pârț !
Tuesday, May 18, 2010
Space invaders
That's right space invaders, most of you know them as ignorant fellow citizens or rude drivers. Remember that day you walked in the park and in the middle of the alley some twat parked his SUV and you had to walk around it in the mud ? or do you know the people which like to breath in the back of your neck while queuing ? or the fat asshole which comes on the buss and stands really really close to you ?
Besides stealing your personal space the space invaders have the extraordinary capacity to steal time ... it sounds fancy but it is so, how do they steal time ?
Stealing time is really simple 1st they have to waste their own and complain about having none left, 2nd they call you while you are taking an afternoon nap ( you can afford it because you have plenty of it )and asking to get shit done for them, or requesting some utterly retarded things from you, things which they are to lazy to organize themselves.
Of course the best thing to do against these invaders is to buy a fucking spaceship with upgraded laser cannons, kill the jocks and advance to next level ... this will get you absolutely nowhere ! If you cant afford the upgrades for your laser guns nor the spaceship, no problem mate ! you can protect your personal space with a few simple tricks ( paper and pen would come in handy here ):
- get nasty if some unauthorized cunt intrudes in your personal space, pretend you know them from somewhere ( for confidence and such ) and then ... start farting, talk rubbish, act loony, ask phone numbers; credit card numbers; e-mail; home address, talk about your sexual fantasies, invent some airborne disease you've got, play with saliva, spoil the latest movies by telling how they end and of course talk about how bad they look.
Defending yourself against time invaders there is a really simple phrase which needs some training "I'm really busy right now, I've got no time", then improvise some really intricate activity which confuses them. If they wont implode like Super Mario when remaining out of time it means they were trying to cut corners. These are the bad space invaders ... which suck hairy asses !
These are the space invaders I like:
An urban art movement started in 1998 by a french guy which calls himself Invader, he managed to set up an artistic invasion around the world. SpaceInvaders.com
By means of graffiti and mosaic they took over the planet, personally I like this kind of "space invasion" ... thinking about joining them and organize a funky sticker propaganda against random parking and personal space invaders ( I'm a mean space invader, please destroy me ! )
Use this classic to get some training:
Meh !
Besides stealing your personal space the space invaders have the extraordinary capacity to steal time ... it sounds fancy but it is so, how do they steal time ?
Stealing time is really simple 1st they have to waste their own and complain about having none left, 2nd they call you while you are taking an afternoon nap ( you can afford it because you have plenty of it )and asking to get shit done for them, or requesting some utterly retarded things from you, things which they are to lazy to organize themselves.
Of course the best thing to do against these invaders is to buy a fucking spaceship with upgraded laser cannons, kill the jocks and advance to next level ... this will get you absolutely nowhere ! If you cant afford the upgrades for your laser guns nor the spaceship, no problem mate ! you can protect your personal space with a few simple tricks ( paper and pen would come in handy here ):
- get nasty if some unauthorized cunt intrudes in your personal space, pretend you know them from somewhere ( for confidence and such ) and then ... start farting, talk rubbish, act loony, ask phone numbers; credit card numbers; e-mail; home address, talk about your sexual fantasies, invent some airborne disease you've got, play with saliva, spoil the latest movies by telling how they end and of course talk about how bad they look.
Defending yourself against time invaders there is a really simple phrase which needs some training "I'm really busy right now, I've got no time", then improvise some really intricate activity which confuses them. If they wont implode like Super Mario when remaining out of time it means they were trying to cut corners. These are the bad space invaders ... which suck hairy asses !
These are the space invaders I like:
An urban art movement started in 1998 by a french guy which calls himself Invader, he managed to set up an artistic invasion around the world. SpaceInvaders.com
By means of graffiti and mosaic they took over the planet, personally I like this kind of "space invasion" ... thinking about joining them and organize a funky sticker propaganda against random parking and personal space invaders ( I'm a mean space invader, please destroy me ! )
Use this classic to get some training:
Space Invaders made by Neave Games
Meh !
Friday, May 14, 2010
I'm a geezer !
Whats up mengz ?
Here I am ! about to sleep my last days in my parents house before moving in my fly apartment. I'm kinda having trouble sleeping at night thinking about having to do everything by myself, gotta be mentally disabled to move away form perfect 7 star hotel living conditions. Not even a seven star hotel can offer so much benefits like my parents house,if I was to give away 1 star / benefit Aladin's palace in Saudi Arabia would look like a joke. All hotels offer the same crap like:
- laundry, also got it at home with a guarantee that my shirt is not washed along with some Arabs stinky underwear
- food served at the table or in bed, my mom does this for me ... she wont spit in my burger
- great panorama, brushing my teeth each morning admiring a beautiful hill covered with thick forest and singing birds bring me fresh spring water to wash me face.
- fighting/martial arts events, my neighbor fights his Moldavian son in law on a regular basis ... sometimes that Moldavian tramp gets on my nerves also but Doru kicks his ass, yep Doru the neighborhood legend is my champ
- kinky strip shows, I promised some window shaver pics didn't I ... here they are, cant find the video tough :
she also does feet behind neck yoga moves to reach those hard accessible areas, but this is not a porn site ... a little bit of tease should be enough for a wank.
- freak shows, just have to go downstairs and I've got a weirdo circus, even made a poster for them:
form left to right: grandpa freak ( awesome stache dude ), daddy freak ( he only likes beer ), little girl freak ( her head will explode, air traffic will get shut down due to a cloud of no future ), mum ( no job + no period + no birth control = freak accident ... wondering about the baby )
- concierge, there is always somebody in front of the door, whether its an old neighbor with a broken hip or a gypsy man wearing heels, somebody is always there.
- internet connection, without any firewalls or "moral block"
Basically all respectable hotels should have this kind of services but which one would offer them for free ?
No worries I've planned some great activities for the new place also, thinking about opening up a knitting and a pastry shop. My future neighbors will be delighted, I mean the old but still golden babes will have to do work which they enjoy doing without money. A relaxed schedule like 3 hours / day would be enough, they could bake and knit till they go crazy. Almost forgot 3 hours of sleep that is, don't try to fool me on signing a confusing contract you old hoes !
Can't believe how much crap I wrote again, just listen to the new Slash album, if you're asking yourself who the fuck is Slash better think about who the fuck are you.
Also eat a sack of oranges each day and watch Cheech And Chong.
/done
Here I am ! about to sleep my last days in my parents house before moving in my fly apartment. I'm kinda having trouble sleeping at night thinking about having to do everything by myself, gotta be mentally disabled to move away form perfect 7 star hotel living conditions. Not even a seven star hotel can offer so much benefits like my parents house,if I was to give away 1 star / benefit Aladin's palace in Saudi Arabia would look like a joke. All hotels offer the same crap like:
- laundry, also got it at home with a guarantee that my shirt is not washed along with some Arabs stinky underwear
- food served at the table or in bed, my mom does this for me ... she wont spit in my burger
- great panorama, brushing my teeth each morning admiring a beautiful hill covered with thick forest and singing birds bring me fresh spring water to wash me face.
- fighting/martial arts events, my neighbor fights his Moldavian son in law on a regular basis ... sometimes that Moldavian tramp gets on my nerves also but Doru kicks his ass, yep Doru the neighborhood legend is my champ
- kinky strip shows, I promised some window shaver pics didn't I ... here they are, cant find the video tough :
she also does feet behind neck yoga moves to reach those hard accessible areas, but this is not a porn site ... a little bit of tease should be enough for a wank.
- freak shows, just have to go downstairs and I've got a weirdo circus, even made a poster for them:
form left to right: grandpa freak ( awesome stache dude ), daddy freak ( he only likes beer ), little girl freak ( her head will explode, air traffic will get shut down due to a cloud of no future ), mum ( no job + no period + no birth control = freak accident ... wondering about the baby )
- concierge, there is always somebody in front of the door, whether its an old neighbor with a broken hip or a gypsy man wearing heels, somebody is always there.
- internet connection, without any firewalls or "moral block"
Basically all respectable hotels should have this kind of services but which one would offer them for free ?
No worries I've planned some great activities for the new place also, thinking about opening up a knitting and a pastry shop. My future neighbors will be delighted, I mean the old but still golden babes will have to do work which they enjoy doing without money. A relaxed schedule like 3 hours / day would be enough, they could bake and knit till they go crazy. Almost forgot 3 hours of sleep that is, don't try to fool me on signing a confusing contract you old hoes !
Can't believe how much crap I wrote again, just listen to the new Slash album, if you're asking yourself who the fuck is Slash better think about who the fuck are you.
Also eat a sack of oranges each day and watch Cheech And Chong.
/done
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